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living well is purposeful and on purpose

I have 2.25 notebooks filled with well living cheat notes, everything from what something feels like energetically to reminders on mind and ego.  Whenever I heard or read something that was "new" to me, or clarified something I didn't know I was confused about, I jotted it down.  Apparently, that's over 200 pages of things.

I find most people I know hear and learn things like I do but they don't seem to keep tabs on it.  It's experienced, and then allowed to slip away.  I like my nerdy little well living books; whenever I can feel something brewing within (like after I've just woken up) I can grab one, flip to a page, point to a section and there it will be, a path to lead me to the issue brewing within.  My own personalized tarot.  Or I can flip to a page, point, and find a topic to write about.  Very nerdy and very handy.

Why am I sharing this?  Living well seems to be a system, not a happenstance.  I wish I knew this as deeply as I do now earlier in my life.  I feel like I would have been further along in life than where I am.  Of course, this feeling is mind/ego; if I needed to have been further along in life, it would have happened.  I am right where It all needs me to be.  

Where are you right now in your life?  Are you mistaken, like I was, or are you sure and appreciative of how your life's journey has brought you to today?  Are you somewhere in between?  Pay attention to the little thoughts that talk to you; again, not all thoughts need to be believed.  You can pick and choose, but it's important that you know you can even do that.  The beliefs make the invisible scaffolding that your life gets built upon.  It's good to see them, and even better to question them.

My notebook tarot today said: "Any tension in the mind or body is an indication of greed, aversion, or delusion.  It means you are likely wanting something, disliking something, or feeling confused about something".  It was right; I was delusional, feeling confused.  I didn't know how to begin today's post but here it is, done with help and transparent truth-telling.  This is how it's done.  

Living well in your life is an art.  Take charge of what you are making here.  It's very important.  What is known and understood, deeply, is all you will have when death drains you out of your body.  What will keep you opening one door and not the other when you're dead is the mental stability you can create in your mind through meditation.  So work now to live well, whatever that means to you.  Pick up the pace a little, and gently, when you can.  Know that here is the building block for there, and get some foundation under those feet.  You always want to land on your feet wherever you go.






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