Scavenge + Starlight

I want to talk to you about depression. Depression is a birth canal. It's dark, it's isolating, you can't quite be yourself, it moves you from one place of being into another. You don't know how long it will take. You don't know what's at the end of it. You may really lose your life in it, and you cannot tell when you enter it. You just know you're there suddenly, sinking, or sunk in. It's a device of Spirit, the capital S spirit, the higher self, the You who guides the way. It gets you in there, that dark little spot, so you can let go, gestate, reconfigure. You are flattened by the process, squeezed dry, a shell. In the old days, the very very old days, this process was honored and recognized by community.  People would be assigned to watch over you, to support you, to hold your responsibilities together for you while you went on this journey. And it is a journey. It can take you so very far away from yourself, and who you used to be. ...

How important is it to figure out your own dream symbols?  I'll tell ya:  if my mother had my dream last night (where I held and spoke to a snake) it would have been a nightmare. If I google a meaning,  I get "Generally, a snake featured in a dream means that you're dealing with a difficult situation or unsettling emotions in your waking life. On the positive side of this dream analysis, dreaming of snakes could also mean that healing and transformation are taking place".  Random, vague, unhelpful cause am I unsettled or am I healing (or is it both?). Taking a few minutes to ask yourself "what does a snake mean to me?" is the only way interpret dreams.  personalized , in the moment, self-based information. Snakes to me represent close to the earth, balance, living in a right way, a feeler not a seer, and this most recent dream symbol (because I dream constantly, even while awake) highlights a snake's way of living could have a lot to teach me. ...

O ne question clients don't ask openly but do ask with reaching out:  is this the right time for me to be reaching for help? It's a very gray area for them, and I often see them reaching out months into an issue, or at the start of something that isn't an issue but a growth zone.  And it's hard for them to know the difference between growth zone and pain zone, when it all kind of looks and feels the same (or so they think). S o some clarity can be provided here.  G rowth zones are challenging. Pain zones are isolating.  Feeling challenged vs feeling isolated is one way to tell if you are being asked to step up into a level of more empowerment for yourself, or if you are slipping into a trajectory of pained thinking and response making.   If it's hard and you don't really want to do it or deal with it but it's not painful (mentally, and/or spiritually, and/or emotionally, and/or physically) then you can be assured it's just a baby-self of you resisti...

There is one variation of question clients usually bring me when they see me for a 1:1 session:  How to stay conscious when you forget to trust? They ask this when they want to know how to find clarity during a turbulent time. They ask this when doubt is high, or when they're not centered enough to keep looking at the "problem" by themselves. They ask this when they are pretending they believe in the universal goodness that surrounds them but in their deep places, they do not. They ask this when they are birthing a new version of themselves and everything is shaken to the core. So, how do you stay conscious when you forget to trust? You can't. Many people want to know how to start building a big beautiful life on a foundation of where they are right now. They don't want to know that they need to tear everything down and start building from scratch. They are sure they want to keep the foundations they have, and just do spot repairs here and th...

in this life, it's all about the getting up after the falling down.  the re-centering.  it's that act of movement that breaks the pattern but more importantly, the awareness that proceeds it right before:  yes, off track; yes, unsteady; yes, stress.  it's the dialogue between self and interface -- this is what I mean.  the knowing it's off and the pause you take to witness it and then to re-align.  most people know they are falling, drifting off course.  they can sense it: lowered energy, more anxiety, more worry, less flow, grace, abundance.  the effects of it start to bump their life:  running late, running out of money, shorter tempers, annoyances building and venting.  but people like to wait a bit longer to re-center and re-align; they lose a few days, a week, a month, a few months.  they think they are incapable of getting back up.  perhaps the missing link is the pausing.  maybe, there's not enough pausing. mayb...

Let's start here:  Your best self you, the one you'll be when you finally have the time or the money or the energy to finally do You right:  What's she doing today? What would she be doing to be your best self?  Would she be lounging in bed, really enjoying the downtime?  Would she be up and on her way to the woods for a mucky hike because she loves the nature and the movement?  Would she be meeting friends for brunch because staying connected brings her peace, belonging, and joy?  Would she be taking time to talk to spirit? What's your best self you doing that you are currently not doing? There's always one thing you can do now to bring that best you alive today.  That's self-care.  That's magic potion living.  That's Oprah zone.  No matter what my clients think they are aiming for (ease, flow, magic, abundance, energy, true love, money, healing, time bending ability, etc) it all starts at this intersection:  what would best s...